I've been thinking a lot lately. Thinking about different things and circumstances in my life. Things that I can control and can't control, things that don't really matter and things that matter most. And through all this thinking I've realized the most important of all of those things are the things in my life that I can control. If I don't like something about my life or situation, for the most part I can change it for the better. I am the ultimate decider of what I want to do on a certain day, how I want my outlook to be, if I want to be sad or happy. So why wouldn't I automatically choose the thing that would make me happiest? And that's where all this thinking has gotten me. I want to change that about me. I really want to make an effort in making myself the happiest. It seems a bit selfish, but I think when you have figured out how to make yourself truly happy then it's easier to make others around you happy too. I don't really know what the ultimate outcome will be, but at this point I think it's best for me and that's what I need.
Just some thoughts and confessions for this Sunday.